Ressurected

This blog is officially ressurected by me..
Didn have to time to write in it...
Hmm~ let's see.. wat's new??
Well, I came back from the training...
And Im proud to say that I really kept enjoying the Lord after coming back.. Even until 2day... I can't say that I've abided in the Lord for 24 hours the whole day, but I did have some improvement... =D Praise the Lord..



Oh~ and my little dark secret is out... Or should I say my big black horrible secret which has been hidden for ages and no one ecxept God knew...
Now, it has been made known to a few ppl...
But unfortunately, I dun feel the relief I was hoping to feel after the secret is out...
The main problem is because this BIG PROBLEM is still bothering me.
And I have simply no idea hoe to overcome it...
But I will try... My very best...

Oh~ And I have to preach the gospel during skool reopens..
I always promise myself that I will. But I failed miserably..
So, this time, I will pray to the Lord, and ask for strength for me to have the burden...
I really dun wan my frens to point at me on judgement day and say:
"You!! You didn preached the gospel to us, now we have to suffer bcuz of YOU... " (aiks..)

And Rachel is coming this Saturday... Hurray!!!
I dun think I can take it anymore... It's sooo boring, cus my sis left for one month...
And Im all alooone (wif my parents)... With no one to laugh with... =(
So, thank God for Rachel!! =)

p/s: I miss my lil' sis... =(




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Dreadful results

I was kinda anticipating my results...
Wandering how horrible it was...
So, the last few days, teachers have been marking like half-crazes marking machines...
Well, we can say dat they were marking at the speed of light bcuz they had a deadline...
Hahaha... But dat may be bad news for us students...
Fast crazy marking teachers may not mark properly or even go through wat students have been writing for 2 hours and all their heart or blood that was shed while answering...

Maybe it's too dramatic...
Anyway, when I got my results back, sadly, I didn leap up into the air or shout happily...
The best I could afford was a frown and say : Maybe d next one will be better...
But, unfortunately, the next one was NOT BETTER...
In fact, it was almost the same...

This is wat I got after years of blood and hard toil:

Sejarah: 78
Fiziks: 71
Add maths: 74
Maths: 71

But, there was one absolutely hilarious result I got for a subject, english...
Guess wat I got......................................................................................................guess guess..........................................................................................................................................................99%
Can u imagine that?????????
Im NOT HAPPY OR PROUD!!!
Just find it devastatingly FUNNY....
Hu gets 99 for english??? It makes no sense to me...
There were 2 essays and that makes it more illogical how I could get 99....
In fact, I find it stupid and insulting...
Dis just means the teacher didn really look through wat I spent 2 hours writing...
It's just STUPID!!!
Wat kind of teacher gives students 99 for ENGLISH wif 2 ESSAYS???????

4give my outburst, I just wanted my feelings to be made known that Im not satisfied with my grades... I rather get low marks than get a super-duper irrational 99%...

Anyway, I not satisfied with my other subjects either...
My mum is not ganna feel happy and jump for joy with me...
In fact, she's assuming that I would study the WHOLE school holidays and 'catch up'...
I wanna faint..................................

Well, that's my results, the rest still remains a mystery... (Im grateful)
Luckily, my heart didn went into cardiac arrest when I got bac my results... Thanks for beating bravely my dear 16 year old heart...

I guess I'd make my resolution now:
1. I will spend my long holidays staring at the book until finally something makes sense.
2. i will not be angry or lose my temper no matter how much my mum nags at me to study.
3. I WILL try to be grateful when my mum is tutoring me.
4. I will try not to think of wat I could have done instead of staring at my bio book for 10 hours.
5. My eyeballs will stay in their sockets while I try to squeeze some information into my useless brain.
6. I will remember wat I read until my SPM.

As we can see, all of them is quite impossible to keep... Or, I will die trying....






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I did it!!

HOOOOORAAAAAAY!!!!
I did it!!! I finished the inhuman torure of the dreadful final exams!!!
Oh my!!!
After the last paper, I would like to say dat I stripped down to my underwear and somersault around the classroom...
But sadly, that didn happen, no.1, I can't somersault even if my life depends on it (I'd probably break my fat neck) no.2: I dun tink my frens will still be alive if they saw me only in my undies...
I can't say it's a good sight, they might end up throwing up or in the ICU...

Anyway, wat I did right after the exam was...................................................... I felt happy.....
Yup, lame I noe... Wat did I expect myself to feel??
Well, so my exam days are just over like that... (wat was I expecting? Fireworks and lightning?)
And I have no idea how to celebrate...
My frens say they will celebrate with a GOOOOOD LOOOONG nap...
AHaha... I wish I was that lucky, I can't slp... So that's y I'm typing this....

So... I dunno wat my plans are... Mayb I'll go back to Gambang later... I'll be goin to Klang tmrw..
Well, I dunno... I just feel..... weird n empty... Now exams are over, I duno wat to do.. (Is dat even normal??)

Well, I'll not be going to skool nxt few days... Those hu haven't had chineses paper yet, GOOD LUCK!! You will need it... Bcuz I DON'T!!! (ahaha... 4gif me, I still haven't got over the I-dun-need-to-take-chinese-anymore-forever feeling... Maybe it will go away in.... 5 years!!! =p)

Actually, I might need my luck, I still haven't gotten back my results... Maybe it will cause me a heart attack and I will die a painful and horrible death...
Or maybe, it will be sooooo good, I myself will not belive it, and teachers will parise me for my hard work...... (Nah, nvr going to happen in a thousand years,,,)
Well, forget the results, I'll just enjoy my happiness while I still have it... =D

Hmmm... Going to ride bike later maybe...

People in the world!!! Im so happy!!


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Last Lap!!

This is it!!
It's d last day of d dreadful exam... TOMORROW...
Tomorrow..... Faster.......... Tomorrow!!!
After d last paper, I will scream and shout, and take of my pants and run round the classroom...
Well, mayb Im not stripping...
But, I will be happy definitely!! =p

Im WAITING....
Impatiently.... =p



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Almost!!

Yay people!!!
The exams are ALMOST over!! (notice I say ALMOST...)
Well, it isn't over yet,
But I have no idea why I feel like it's over...
Anyway, I really donno how I did this time...
Seriously, everytime I think I did quite well, the results makes me get a heart attack when it came out..
Everytine I tot I did quite terrible, the result is much better than I expected...
So Im not thinking or hoping on ANYTHING...
I jus hope my heart won't fail when I get back my results...

Wat am I talking about???!!! Exams aren't even FINISH...
And here I am, blabbing bout my unknown results...
=.=''... I need a break....

My Poem

Tresspass not that section,
or you will regret what will happen.
In a split second,
my heart will have a dent.
Don't you know that it's wrong,
to sing other people's song, and tell them it's another.
But it isn't, so don't bother.
There will no chance to be sober,
because it is all over.

All things happen for a reason,
but this is called treason.
Don't you know between good and bad?
Or you just want to make me mad.
The thin line that was there,
is causing such a nightmare.
Because it is not what you think it is.
there is no more love and bliss.

But forget what I say,
You never did care anyway.
After all this time,
I was never fine.
But now it is all gone,
so don't bother to sing along.

I wrote this during my eng paper... Was too bored... =p
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Gah~

Again...

Teacher said: jane, u must practice... Plz practice... practice practice.....
I did. Seriously, I just get nervous when Im playing the piano in front of her...
So I sucked... Very seriously sucked.....



Haiz~ I WILL PRACTICE MORE!!!
But exams are here... That's my BIG problem...
Im not very gud at time management....
So, I guess I'll just make a list of things to do and not to do...



Things to do:
=Practice piano
=Study
=Memorise
=Understand wat Im actually reading
=Think of happy thoughts after exam
=Breathe in front of the test paper

Things NOT to do:
-Freak out when thinking of wat I still havn't study
-Listen to music when studying
-Hate myself 4 forgetting wat I just studied a minute ago
-Hit my head and torture myself if I cannot remember
-Get head and brain damage while studying
-Eat to distress
-Forget to practice piano for d millionth
-Think of the LONG stretch of exam days
-Writing my will in case I die in my classroom

Thing I think I can acheive:
+Freak out
+Going blank in front of the examination paper
+Freak out sumore
+Absolutely despise myself for having such a LOUSY memory
+Binge while studying
+Do VERY BADLY in exam

As we ALL can see, my list of things NOT to do is absolutely longer than my things to do... So that means I have many things NOT to do instead of doing things. And things I can acheive is my list of things NOT to do...

So that's about it... I think Im a lousy person.... =(

So: Gah~

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